I also didn’t know how to not blame myself for weaknesses or faults.
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Psychiatrist: Of course you did. You’ve revealed feelings you’ve kept hidden for decades, of course you’re going to feel embarrassed. Think of it as a transitional phase.
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anxiety towards new situations and how I appear to others, and how this comes out as hostility towards others – these were all problems so entrenched that it seemed hopeless to try to solve them.
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Psychiatrist: Fear increases when it’s something that you keep to yourself. Instead of suffering alone, it can often be good to share it with someone else, like you’re doing now.
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People say I’m very honest. But I thought to myself: Am I really an honest person? And I realised the part of me that I hide from all others is this part.
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But the crux of the matter is that you keep believing you have to meet other people’s expectations—
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The funnier thing is that often I have no interest in the men but I’m hoping they’re interested in me. Jesus, I really do hate myself, I’m pathetic.
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I am very aware of it. I’m so sensitive to that sort of thing that every little word sounds like thunder.
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(Wow, this is painful for me to write. I really sound like a crazy person here.)
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Feelings of envy are very common, it only means you have ideals. But envy coupled with constant comparisons with oneself is something distinct. I think you’re only idealising her a little, it doesn’t seem that seriou