“You know, I only started talking to you because I wanted to see what you were like. The girl who stole my dream.”
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I get swept up in the joy of stretching myself, of being able to feel just how clever my brain can be sometimes. When I look at a problem and immediately know what to do, it feels like I’m flying.
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So why should I live at all? I could do what my mother did, and just … not. Check into a pod. Leave my life up to chance. Refuse to take responsibility. It would be so easy. But it would be so pointless. Every year I’ve fought to survive would be wasted. I realize then that I’ve made up my mind: I want to live. I want to live so much that I would tear out the throat of anyone who tried to stop me. I’m not going to give up. I’m not going to sit back and wait for J to find me and play more of his games. I’m going to fight. I’m going to do whatever it takes to survive.
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there are always reasons for me to hide under my duvet and do nothing instead of acting. I need to start taking more risks.
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Molly used to tell me that I couldn’t just pretend it hadn’t happened. That I had to work through my feelings and accept them.
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I’m going to fight. I’m going to do whatever it takes to survive.
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So why should I live at all? I could do what my mother did, and just . . . not. Check into a pod. Leave my life up to chance. Refuse to take responsibility. It would be so easy. But it would be so pointless. Every year I’ve fought to survive would be wasted. I realize then that I’ve made up my mind: I want to live. I want to live so much that I would tear out the throat of anyone who tried to stop me. I’m not going to give up. I’m not going to sit back and wait for J to find me and play more of his games.
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There are so many places on the ship that I avoid because I’m afraid of facing the past. But the past is much less scary than the future. I know what’s already happened; I know how bad it was. I don’t know what’s coming, though.
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Just remember, J, you’re coping with everything the best way you can, and that’s all that matters. Don’t ever think you aren’t strong.
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Though time doesn’t really make any difference to pain. It never disappears.