Rest in the Mourning

to the morning
and the sun dissolves the moon
you find yourself
losing more of who you were
you find yourself smiling
while sadness soaks your soul
fits of laughter
just to keep the tears from falling
you’ve gotten so much better
at disguising your anguish
sometimes we wear masks so long
to hide what we truly feel
that those layers become
an extra skin, a part of our identity
and that’s what you’ve become
your reflection is the lie
that keeps others from asking you
what’s wrong or wondering why

don’t believe him
when he says
it was supposed to be you
because when he hangs up
the phone
after professing his love
he’ll return to the life
with the woman
he left you for

i think the hardest part
is realizing
that the people we want
are sometimes
incapable of providing
what we deserve
and sometimes
what we really need
is to let go
in order to find something
worth holding on to