- Dušanmembuat kutipan2 tahun yang lalu
knows but what those fits of depression she continued having until her death were a memento of vices in which my grandfather had indulged in his prime? - Dušanmembuat kutipan2 tahun yang laluhad a presentiment then that there is in this world a kind of desire like stinging pain. Looking up at that dirty youth, I was choked by desire, thinking, "I want to change into him," thinking, "I want to be him." I can remember clearly that my desire had two focal points. The first was his dark-blue "thigh-pullers," the other his occupation
- Dušanmembuat kutipan2 tahun yang laluother children, as soon as they attain the faculty of memory, want to become generals, I became possessed with the ambition to become a night-soil man.
- Dušanmembuat kutipan2 tahun yang laluI somehow felt it was "tragic" for a person to make his living in the midst of such an odor. Existences and events occurring without any relationship to myself, occurring at places that not only appealed to my senses but were moreover denied to me—these, together with the people involved in them, constituted my definition of "tragic things."
- Dušanmembuat kutipan2 tahun yang laluNeedless to say, the odor could not, at that time, have had any direct relationship with sexual sensations, but it did gradually and tenaciously arouse within me a sensuous craving for such things as the destiny of soldiers, the tragic nature of their calling, the distant countries they would see, the ways they would die. . . .
Again, as if sexuality precedes the death drive. Truly some divine stuff, religious even. Not sexual but not without content. What cometh first? Not biological, not cultural, as Alenka puts it
- Dušanmembuat kutipan2 tahun yang laluperiod of childhood is a stage on which time and space become entangled
- Dušanmembuat kutipan2 tahun yang laluWhat was it I understood at that moment, or was on the verge of understanding? Did the motif of later years—that of "remorse as prelude to sin"—show here the first hint of its beginning? Or was the moment teaching me how grotesque my isola
- Dušanmembuat kutipan2 tahun yang laluisolation would appear to the eyes of love, and at the same time was I learning, from the reverse side of the lesson, my own incapacity for accepting love? . . .
- Dušanmembuat kutipan2 tahun yang laluUntil then I had mistakenly thought I was only poetically attracted to such things, thus confusing the nature of my sensual desires with a system of esthetics.
- Dušanmembuat kutipan2 tahun yang lalua familiar use of the resurrection theme in response to mankind's demand for miracles
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