I was 32 when I realised I had spent ten and a half hours at my computer.
Again. I had promised myself I was done. I had promised it a thousand times.
How Porn Addiction Destroyed My Life is my own story of pornography
addiction and recovery: how a habit that began with a torn magazine when
I was ten came to affect my confidence, my relationships, and my sense of
who I was.
Inside, I talk openly about:
- What happens in your brain when porn addiction takes hold — dopamine,
the reward system, and why "just stop" doesn't work
- Pornography and erectile dysfunction (ED) — the connection nobody warned
me about, and what it did to being present with a real partner
- How compulsive sexual behavior takes root, and why relapse never felt
like losing a battle — it was already happening before I decided anything
- What helped me quit porn, what did not, and what I learned along the way
- How shame and secrecy kept me stuck longer than the addiction itself
This is a short, personal book. I am not a doctor or a therapist, and I do
not offer a guaranteed method. What I can offer is an honest account from
someone who knows the frustration of wanting to change while repeating the
same behaviour.
I wrote it for people questioning their own pornography use, and for
partners and loved ones trying to understand an experience that can be
difficult to explain.
If any of this feels familiar, I hope my story helps you feel less alone
as you consider your own next step.
